Eyes of Faith

There's something in the way, it's in my line of sight.
It seems to be so stubborn, it's putting up a fight.
But I'll rise to the challenge and prove that I'm strong.
It's going down, you'll see, not before too long.
Whatever comes my way, I'll rise to the challenge.
Living life for what is right, into righteousness I'll plunge.
Nothing can stand in my way, my future is so bright.
I'll do it in my strength, and do it in my might.
All the while, even though I don't realize,
I'm sinking deeper, and at night my soul cries.
It's the faintest of whispers, dancing across my mind,
That says, I've believed in a lie, and I'll soon find,
If I fight alone, it's a losing battle.
But I can't face that, it will ruin my man-made castle.
With just a little gust of wind and rain.,
Nothing good in my life will remain.
However, this too is a lie I have believed.
And as long as I do, the enemy is relieved.
For He knows if I fall, and cannot stand,
God will reach down and take my hand.
Strength will flow from His heart to mine.
It won't be about me, but about Him.
On this earth He came and trod.
The paths of death and sorrow.
He shed His blood for tomorrow.
For a brighter day, and a new way.
He conquered my sin.
Soo.... this something in the way,
My God did already pay,
The price it would take to redeem.
So that I would have the freedom to dream.
And see with the eyes of faith. 

When My Back is to the Light

There's pounding in my ears, like... thud thud thud.
The sound of my feet slipping through the mud,
And rain drops hitting the ground like so many beats.
There's the wind howling like a dog,
It's hard to see for all the mist and fog.
Away, away from everything I run.
No looking back, I must run.
But now the sun starts to fade, dimmer dimmer.
My chances of finding my way back are slimmer.
Because in the darkness I can't see the road.
And my legs are weakening under my load.
But gritting my teeth, and taking a breath,
Reminding myself, I'm in control, even to my death,
Away, away from everything I run.
No looking back, I must run.
Run away from the light that so easily consumes me.
Run away from forgiveness that will set me free.
Run away from love that will always satisfy me.
I run into darkness, hiding from the light?
I run into bitterness, refusing forgiveness?
I run from love, from His love that never fails me?
And as I run, it hits me, knocking the breath out of me!
Like a kaleidescope, I was all turned around.
Since when did fighting for my ambitions,
And standing for all my silly traditions,
Take the place of what I set out to do?
The very thing I want to do, is the very thing I can't.
And the very thing I do not want to do, is the thing I do.
I set out to run for Him,
And find I'm running from Him.
I set out to change the world,
And find the world has changed me.
I run towards the light,
Only to find my back is against it.
But even as the sun goes down, so it rises.
And even when I chase the sunset,
His mercies come with the blessed dawn.